Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The Wind At My Back

2008 sailed in like a breathe of fresh air. Like a new lover, it whispered in my ear sweet nothings of love and assurance.

"Don't worry, Karen" it told me, "you can forget about that uncaring asshole, 2007, and put him behind you once and for all."

2008 gave me permission to take my lessons learned like a bullet and carry them forward.

Which is exactly what I did.

2008 has been the best year of my life. Not only because I have untold riches and fabulous and meaningful relationships and unprecedented accomplishments, but because I got to follow my heart. But here's the rub: I've always had untold riches and fabulous relationships and unprecedented accomplishments: I've always had it all. I was just too busy complaining about what I didn't have to ever appreciate it.

I got to step off the assembly line. I didn't just start writing; I started writing the script of my own life. Imperfect and clumsy as it may look, poor and passionate though it may be; it resembles me now thoroughly and blissfully and completely.

2008 is the year my life cracked wide open. I loved more, I worried less. It has been about forgiving myself, working less, indulging more, finding joy, shedding guilt and shirking responsibility. And I have a sister who let me do it all.

I feel like I finally get it. I finally understand what makes me tick, who I am, how to be happy and how to move forward. I am still working on many, many things but I know this for sure: I'm going to be okay. I have all the answers. I have everything I need.



Did you keep your New Year's Resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I did a’wright. I only made it out to the Mountains once instead of twice, and I never did make it to my belly dancing class, but I can live with that and happily carry it over to 2009. And yes, I will most definitely make more.

Where did you go?
Quebec


Vegas



and Belize.


What did you get really, really excited about and why?
I think we all know the answer to that:



What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I wrote a book.


What was your biggest failure?
Ooh, gotta say my sister. I am still fighting to love, not just to win.

What has surprised you most?
I started going to church.

What album will always remind you of 2008?
Hard Candy, Madonna

Best book:
Bright, Shiny Morning by my hero James Frey

Greatest musical discovery?
Andy Palacio and the Garifuna Collective

What did you want and get?

I go to stay home and write!

What was your favorite film of this year?
Sex & the City

Number of friendships ended: 2
Number of articles published: 28
Number of blog posts: This makes 104
Film festivals attended: 1
Plays attended: about 9
Number of mechanical bulls ridden: 1
Number of pancake breakfasts: 4
Number of planes ridden: 13 (3 round trips)
Number of weddings attended: 1
Number of weddings worked: about 10
Number of road trips: 2
Number of books read: 7
Number of days on the beach/by the pool: 10
Number of different employers: 5
Number of hours spent in a personal development course or seminar: 160

The most surprising thing you learned about yourself this year that was completely obvious to everyone around you:

-I have authority issues
-Change is hard for me

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
A pyjama with woolly slippers

Something you do now that you never thought you would:
-Listen to Kate Bush

Something you do every day that most people don't know about:
-visualizations and affirmations

Who was the best new person you met?
Jordan, although technically, we met last year. We just didn’t connect until now.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
My assumptions are almost always wrong

Lessons that you are going to carry over into the New Year:

-Tell the truth
-Worry less
-Let go

A quote that sums up your year:

"One must always be prepared for riotous and endless waves of transformation." -Elizabeth Gilbert

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