This week, my Subconscious Mind has been a double-fisted Barbarian baying for blood.
Belief Re-patterning is all about accessing the limiting beliefs in the subconscious mind which are well, limiting you. From what I understand, it is essentially the same basic premise as cognitive behavioural therapy, but jazzier (jazz hands).
Our subconscious brain, by the way, occupies roughly 95% of our mind. And she's a tough old boot. She is conditioned, essentially, to protect us. The subconscious brain is where things like driving skills, shoe-tying and the lyrics from every 80s song and TV jingle are stored. That is good: we need those conditioned, automatic responses. What we don't need so much is to hang onto beliefs about never succeeding, money not growing on trees, being a failure, being boring, being ugly, being stupid...or whatever other crazy ingrained beliefs we have had the great misfortune to pick up along the way. Take your pick.
In the last months or so, it has become increasingly difficult for me to ignore my Authority Issues. Yes friends, I have authority issues.
Shocking.
I am a rebel without a clue. But it's one thing to rebel against an overly-structured Public School System; a tyrannical employer, a domineering parent...it is quite another to be rebelling against my own self.
Because the truth is, I have all the Freedom I ever asked for. I got exactly the life that I have always wanted. So, why am I still rebelling? And against what?
So in search for answers, I have been taking time to observe all the areas of my life in which my rebellious nature gets in my way. And the answers have been shocking to nobody else but me. Because friends, my authority issues are like Stage IV Cancer: they're everywhere; metastasizing to nearly every area of my life.
For the last month or so, I have been chewing on the following idea: Rebelling is all about a desire for more Freedom. We need Structure to create Freedom.
Yeah that's great, except even the word 'Structure' gets my back up. My subconscious mind is a brutish carnivore, a Palaeolithic cavewoman warrior with a really sharp spear. She is protecting me from getting eaten by lions. Which is great, except that the Stone Age is over. And those lions are just a figment of my own imagination. Those lions, in fact, are me. So, I'm rebelling against myself. That's productive. And she is so busy protecting me with her war cries and rain dances that she is getting in the way of my hopes and dreams. I want a husband, maybe a baby; a healthy lifestyle and a successful career. Oh. And shitloads of money. And the FEAR is getting in my way.
Also, I realized that my first book was about Fear of Failure. My second book is about Fear of Success.
*sigh.*
So basically, I realized that I have HUGE. HUGE limiting beliefs around structure. Structure ties my stomach in knots. Rules and 'Shoulds' and telling me what to do sends me reeling down a self-destructive, defiant, and decidedly grouchy path.
So here's what I came up with: My subconscious mind perceives STRUCTURE as...are you ready for this? stifling.
That's it. That's my breakthrough.
So. The Belief Re-patterning allows you to acknowledge your limiting beliefs, forgive yourself for them and then looks at moving past them through Permission, Freedom and Choice.
It's all very liberating.
And eventually it gets distilled into an affirmation. You see, I was skipping over the most important steps, trying to get to the Affirmation before forgiving and permitting and doing all the grungy work.
And FORGIVENESS is HUGE for me. HUGE.
So my affirmation now is: I am a woman who is living in the Abundance and Prosperity that comes from Structure.
And the walls came tumbling down. The floodgates opened and I wrote. I wrote like the wind, i wrote like the dickens, I wrote, I forgave, I created, I exulted.
The walls came tumbling, tumbling merrily down.
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily. Life is but a dream.
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