Way Down

I think I might have to break down and buy Tori Amos 'A Piano' box set. For those of you who know me for my notorious cheapskatedness, this is a rather bold pronouncement.

The only thing. Only.ONLY thing that has buoyed me through this week has been the acoustic version of 'A Sorta Fairytale' which is so god-damned heart-breaking that it makes me want to curl up in a ball and wail.

That and 'Intro Jam/ Marys of the Sea.' This 8+-minute song which includes such epic lyrics as 'Back that ass up now' and 'you built your rock that’s on sand' (which i actually thought until just now was 'hey you built a rocketship on sand’ and I gotta be honest, am kind of disappointed is not. meh. I've been making up my own tori lyrics for 15 years. Why stop now?) has been propelling me to and from wherever I've been coming and going from.

“Back me on up
I gotta face some kind of evil tomorrow
I need to know that you're gonna be there
and you know my faith is in your hands, now
just back me on up
just back me on up
back me on up”

I need all the help I can get.

This week has been strange; I have been on auto-pilot. I feel like I've been in some sort of vacuum, or tunnel. All I can hear is white noise. And Tori Amos.


This bitch has got my back.