Call Him Mr. Raider...

So, it has taken me until now to get myself out there and realize that the old adage about there being ‘plenty of fish in the sea’ is annoyingly true. I’m out there, in the trenches, with the wolves and the vultures searching for the next great thing. I have dated more men this year than in the last 7 years COMBINED (yeah, really.) I’m not quite sure what the difference is. I’m still the same old me. Still like to party. Still like to have fun. Still like to chat it up at the bar. Only now for some reason, there has been some reciprocation. Maybe it's because I have become better at playing the game, or better at sending and interpreting signals…it could have something to do with the fact that I’ve stopped spending so much time in gay bars. It could be that I live two blocks from the bar. Or it could just be the cosmos fucking with my life. Whatever the reason, I’m just really not used to that much interest from members of the opposite sex. I of course still think that there is something wrong with them. I don’t trust them for a second and I am forever convinced that they’re all using me. This may all be true, but at least I’m not sitting at home alone on my couch stuffing my face with potato chips and bemoaning my sad and pathetic state of affairs!

Unfortunately, with such a quick turn around, I haven’t been giving myself enough time to think or process information/feelings. This is probably a good thing. As soon as I start getting analytical, things start getting intense and messy. But you know, I’m kind of starting to break my own rules. I like things neat and orderly. I like for men to follow by my rules. Until I realized that so far, that hasn’t worked well for me, even a little bit…Rules and boundaries are just all your baggage disguised. Rules and boundaries and fear have kept me single for seven years. Enough already! What guy in his right mind is going to bother wid’ alla dat kinda BULLshit? On the other hand, there is a thing or two to be said about having some clearly defined guidelines. Except that I just really can’t be arsed any more. Where have they gotten me so far? They have gotten me all untouchable sittin up on my high, sanctimonious horse….ALONE. So from now on, I’m just going to go with the flow. (Well, for this week, anyway.) Maybe that OTHER annoying adage is true as well: Maybe girls really DO just wanna have fun…

Listen to these HOT hits Today:

'Mr. Vain' Culture Beat
'Girls Just Wanna Have Fun' Cyndi Lauper
'Rythm is a Dancer' La Bouche
'Broken Bones' Love Inc.
'Downtown' Peaches
and of course...
'Flower' Liz Phair