As The Sacrifice Wheel Turns

So my book writing has been dead in the water for the past two weeks. I hit 10,000 words, and I stopped writing. Getting tired of sabotaging myself and making this book so hard, I tried to chill out and go with the flow. But you know, I have a deadline looming, so there's only so much of that you can do.

Truth is, I am REALLY getting sick of creating all this drama and tired of being the star of my own personal Soap Opera...So my sister sat down with me on Monday night and did a Sacrifice Wheel with me. What is that? Well, it's a way to get to the heart of the matter. I wasn't writing because I felt resentment, anger and guilt. And there can be no creativity in the face of those ugly monsters.

So the Sacrifice Wheel is an itemized list of all the things I feel I am sacrificing for this book (and oh, it's quite a long list---time, freedom, balance, exercise, friendships, my business...it goes on and on.)

I am sacrificing all that with the EXPECTATION that I will get the book done faster.

Which leads to RESENTMENT about a whole schwack of things---no results, money, missing out, living like a hermit, going against my nature, ETC.)

Which in turn circles around to GUILT. I feel guilty about EVERYTHING. I feel guilty if I am not writing, feel guilty if I am doing anything other than writing, sleeping or eating. Laundry? Guilty. Cleaning the house? Guilty. Getting groceries? Guilty. Going to the library. Guilty. Going out with friends? DEFINITELY GUILTY.

So as the sacrifice wheel turns, I am NOT GETTING ANYTHING WRITTEN. And the resentment and the anger and the bitterness and the resistance builds.

So my sister helped me get off the wheel. Say no, forgive myself and Get Back to Work.

In other words, SHUT UP AND WRITE.

Join us again for another episode of As The Sacrifice Wheel Turns.